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                   Attention whore. That's what you call me.


     Am I really? I'm usually the one girl who sits quietly in the back of the classroom, and rarely participates in public. I'm the one who hates to be on the spotlight with questions, who cries silently when someone berates her. I hardly ever ask for anything, but for you to listen when I feel like talking. Whether it be serious or not, a pair of loyal ears is a good thing to have.
     And you. You started to pull me out of that hellish shell I locked myself in years ago. I loved you. You loved me. We were happy, being the only two peas in a humongous pod. I let you take whatever you wanted of me, and I didn't ask for much in return. I didn't need your body or materials. I just wanted a space in your heart, that secluded place no one had ever seen before. I thought I was selfish to ask so much of you. I thought I was asking too much, for someone who pulled me out of my personal hell.
     But then wait. When I want a little more attention than usual, you haul-off? And call me that dirty word? How is that justified and fair in anyway? Now, thanks to you, I'm once again the girl who sits quietly in the back of the room. I've moved to different people, different friends, different faces, different places, but I still can't replace you. I hate that. I'm bitter now, on top of everything else. Satisfied yet? This is what you've created. Happy with your little monster? Did you just want someone to be lonelier and more unhappy than you? It would have been better if you had left me in that hell. I would have gladly taken that over this... this... doll I am now.
     Attention whore. That's not what I'd use to describe myself.
     No, I'd use broken...
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Listen, I'm gonna say this after getting raged hard on, okay? This is not my ACTUAL life. Yes, 'tis based off my life. The best authors and writers base their stuff off of their real lives, at least a little bit, right? So of course I did, too. This really did happen to me, to some extent. I have LONG past moved on, I just felt like writing it for all the people who have gone through something similar. A way to help people, and moral support, and all that, okay? So STOP RAGING ON ME, AMERICAN-8ITCH, DAMMIT. (That's one of the bitches, by the way :meow: Kthnksbai)


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Oh... oh my gosh.... You guys! :iconiloveyouplz: I can't thank you guys enough for all the favs and views! I'm sorry that I won't be able to thank you all personally, and reply to all of your lovely comments. Just know that I read Every. Single. One.

Thank you again! And one of you guys even told me that you found this through the front page!!!!! And I just found it on the second page of most popular, the only literature!! Ohmygosh thank you!!
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ArtsyCJ Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Gator Clap Well said.
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Aneirasilvermoon Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I feel like people who post things on art sites like this instead of getting real help are attention whoring.
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Novice0000 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Me after my breakup. I'm still trying to recovery, even a little...
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Ask-BloomingRose Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Student Artist
This.


is my life ; . ;
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TheRealYuma Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
People call you a Lady Gaga?
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kolson98 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Student General Artist
I like it.And it's really good.By the way I love your user name.
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devartaddicted Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Student General Artist
this will always take a little place in my heart... would always remember this ;)
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brandt2846 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
In a metaforical manner, I suppose we can all "repair" the wounds of time, Question is, how do we really do it? If one were not to find the answer i suppose he or she could always keep on looking forward instead of back and the mind will eventually forget, Rather that then creating a shield that prevents happyness from ever truly being found anew.
But dont ask me im just so random guy casually browsing Deviant Art...
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mortalshinobi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012
very saddening since it's too close to the truth.
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XNezushiX Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i can really relate to how you were feeling;
i lost all my closest friends, not that i had much to begin with.
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Haru-The-Kitty Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love this...
It makes me so sad, but it's scary how realistic it is...
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AnonymousPinkRose Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012
Wow, This is beautiful

Well done x
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DestryDisenchanted Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It sounds like you've taken a look in my journal. Such a good job. Honestly, this made me tear up a bit. Job well done <3
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Wintermoonfeather Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Student Filmographer
One reason why I'm wary about starting a relationship. They can't hurt you if don't let them close enough to.
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AklaseIsMe Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Describes me in a nut shell. Nice job. :)
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beingme4me Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist
i was in a similar situation not too long ago, i wasn't really quiet really in fact i was rather loud but i wasnt very popular, as soon as i started to become less awkward and weird i started to participate in more things because in fact i love the spotlight though rarely got to be in it. soon a friend i had made who i had become really close to stopped talking to me and called me various names including attention whore, never to my face though, it made me extremely sad though luckily i had other friends. anyways its over now and she has apologized so i'm happy, though it cant always end happily for everyone all the time.
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Cuteanimenekogirl Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Student Artist
Ahhh I love this song... and by song I mean I sang it with my brother when I read it
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potentiallyME Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
O3O I don't know you, but you know what? What I'd like to do right now is make that person suffer. A Lot. Cause it irritates the hell out of me that the world is made of people like this. =/ This comment is probably not worth much, because I'm not very good at explaining, but.. yeah.. ^-^'
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AnimeCrunchy Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012
Someone uses "attention whore" to refer to someone who wanted a bit more of their attention? I don't know about the context of the story, but I suppose I'll only ever know about your side of it.

The only 27 attention whores I've known in the past two years (not sure if attention whores or most "normal" girls are like that), were so-called because they'd post half-naked pictures on Facebook or Myspace, would run around trying to be LOL RANDUMB XD, would say they have depression and cut their wrists (despite a complete lack of scars and an inability to describe what depression is or the medication they were given from the doctor that diagnosed them), would cry in front of everyone because their parents did not buy them credit, or were obscenely obnoxious in an attempt to garner as much attention as possible. The people themselves thought they were being, "cute", when in actuality everyone hated them.

I'm not a huge fan of attention whores at all, but if there isn't more to this story and someone was using the word out of context to describe someone that is merely vulnerable, that's pretty dodgey. :\
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sammi-nicole Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Student
i empathize. completely. it's utterly disgusting that someone can treat someone else that way. but, on the bright side, since you obviously understand what love and friendship truly mean, you'll end up happier than the db who treated you that way.

thanks for writing this :glomp: being able to commiserate makes me feel less lonely and just a little bit happier, as weird as that may seem ^^;
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Falrone Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Your comment is really awesome. :)
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sammi-nicole Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Student
thank you? aha :aww:
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hetaliallover101 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Loved it. I could relate
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NotenSMSK Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
A well written work with nice heartbreaking story that many can relate to. The expressions are well stated and register well. The only problem there is; well it is not really a problem. Just that people prefer... a bit complete endings... a bit satisfying. I do realize that it is not necessary to bring this to a happy or sad ending but... pff I guess this is alright :P
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zoidledoidle Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so sorry. You don't sound like you deserved any of that. I can understand how you feel.
You're a very talented writer. I really got a lot of vibes from this. I hope it takes you places <3
I am sending you all the internet hugs I can. ... *v-wumv-wumv-wumv-wum*
Lovely work!
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SanaPet Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I sympathize...
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SaiSaiz Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AWWWWW... I found this on the deviantart page. T__T I feel bad for you. WAH! *Cried reading this*
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Amandamp101 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
...

who is this person?

I shall kill them for you.
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InsomniacPsycho Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :D But... they're probably already dead, considering the backlash they got for treating me like this....
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Amandamp101 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
LETS BETTER HOPE SO!!!
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oEnvy Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Student General Artist
:iconmegustaplz:
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ObsidianWyng Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist
Who is this person? Let me attack them..
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InsomniacPsycho Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
A very mean person... Attacking would be nice :D
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ObsidianWyng Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist
I shall now attack them... with my mind.
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Bunny-Chan7 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
ilu, sis <3 :iconhugplz:
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InsomniacPsycho Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
TUT ilu too :heart: :huggle:
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Bunny-Chan7 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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InsomniacPsycho Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:P
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Bunny-Chan7 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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CreteSummerfang Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:iconcraiplz: WHO IS THIS PERSON, I'M GONNA SMACK THEM
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InsomniacPsycho Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
;U; Thank you!! Haha not to worry; just a *cough cough* less-than-friendly person who got smacked around after this :D
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